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User: fire_fiction (posted by sheafrotherdon)
Date: 2007-12-20 16:32
Subject: Fic: Half a Possibility (SGA, John/Rodney, PG)
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Half a Possibility by sheafrotherdon
~ PG. For wild_isis as a thank you for her donation to fire_fic Her prompt: "I'd like a fic of approximately 1,000 words, John/Rodney, established relationship, someone watching them (3rd person POV sort of thing)." Happy to oblige! With thanks, as ever, to dogeared for the indispensable beta. ♥



There are ways a man acts if he is a generous, loyal Athosian – Jinto's been learning his part since he was small. There have been off-hand comments thrown his way by neighbors and elders, formal instruction at his father's knee, hunting parties and seasonal ceremonies, long, tedious hours of memorizing folklore in the mothers' tent. He has learned the value of bravery, caution, and surrender, has a vague idea that he's supposed to grow wise, knows the thrill of breaking some rules and the rewards of following others.

But there are new men in their company now, and his father indulges his wish to study their ways. "There is much we can learn from others," Halling tells him. "Be thoughtful as you observe."

Jinto finds it an easy edict to follow.

When he first meets Major Sheppard, Jinto marvels at his clothing – it seems so stiff and cumbersome an outfit for moving through a forest – and covets the headgear that allows him to see in the dark. With such tools, Jinto muses, his people would always know if Wraith wait in darkness – not that the Major seems to know who the Wraith are. This is fascinating – as fascinating as the gun the Major carries instead of a hunting knife, and the loose, easy pace of his step, as though he feels no worry. Jinto hangs back and watches him, tries to emulate his easy stance, wants badly to know the secret of striding over Athos without a single furtive look toward the skies.

He thinks, at first, that all the strange, new men are like Sheppard – he learns quickly that such a conclusion is not true. The ones who travel with him are terse to Teyla, despite her stature and the gifts of which she's possessed. They seem to consider her unworthy, distasteful – whether for her clothing, her body, her thoughts, or her home, Jinto cannot tell, but he warms to the Major who shares nonsense thoughts about Fay-riss Whee-s rather than the officer who breathes quick and harsh through his nose in dismissal and sees no quality of leadership in Teyla's evaluative stare.

He knows then that he will follow his father's example, be like Sheppard, value everyone, use caution but not judgment until a hand has been played. Teyla, too, can teach him how to act – how to tolerate those who act with haste or in ill-temper. He will not be a man who cannot see beyond the power invested in a gun.

When he meets the man Sheppard calls McKay, he is curious – then swiftly baffled. The man seems important, respected by the Lanteans, yet his waist is soft from inertia and his hands smooth from doing no work that Jinto understands. He does not carry a gun as he walks the halls of Atlantis, frequently speaks of his discomfort and dismay, scorns those around him and rarely seems to sleep. There is little in his character that Jinto can reconcile with the qualities desirable to develop as a man – yet Sheppard tolerates him, teases him out of his tempers, turns to him for advice when no one can understand the City.

Then comes the shadow, the creature Jinto lets loose in his curiosity about the Ancients and their home. Sheppard finds him, steadies him with a hand to his shoulder, stays with him while McKay stomps and yells – but then it's McKay, confusingly, who faces the shadow down, sends it away, saving them all, Athosian and Lantean alike.

Jinto finds new reasons to study McKay after that, to notice a sadness that seems to lurk beneath his sharp words and to respect his intellect and knowledge of a city that shuts out the comforting sound of the wind.

They establish New Athos on Lantean shores, and for many weeks Jinto finds himself busy with plowing and planting, securing the elders' tents, and scouting terrain. He studies compassion by watching Dr. Beckett's hands, learns everything he knows he wishes not to become by spending half a day with Kavanagh, grows curious along with Parrish as the botanist harvests seeds and saplings, handling each specimen with such care. It's a heady education, to sort and discard each quality before him as desirable or not, to see conflicts resolved with sharp words and silences, punches to the mouth. He watches Sheppard disappear into himself, weighed down by the duties that Teyla carries with greater grace, and he learns for the first time how guilt looks in a man's frown.

He sees that McKay refuses to leave Sheppard in isolation, and he loves him a little for that.

When the first harvest comes there is celebration – grain safely stored means feasting and song. The Lanteans come, mix and mingle with the people of New Athos, laugh loudly and openly, dance as best they can to music they barely know.

And out beyond the warm circle of the village fire's welcome, McKay takes Sheppard's hand, spied on by a boy-becoming-man who had never considered that this might be a man's choice too. Sheppard looks, Jinto thinks, profoundly torn, as though this is something he wants but can't trust himself to have. But McKay – just a little drunk, pint pot discarded in the middle of the field – curls one hand around Sheppard's shoulder, leans in and kisses him, full on the mouth.

This is nothing Jinto has thought of before, or understood he was seeing in others – the Athosian men who lived as family, the men who never took wives. But it is not incomprehensible, this kiss, this sway of two bodies leaning into each other, nor does he need explanation for Sheppard's sigh, or the way the kiss becomes a tangled holding on, McKay's fingers splayed through the dark of Sheppard's hair.

Jinto turns back to camp again, pilfers a garnu fruit from the platter on his father's table.

"Are you well?" his father asks.

"I am well," Jinto smiles, world grown half a possibility more.
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User: thisissirius
Date: 2007-12-20 22:53 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Keyword:sga + everytime i touch [j x r]
OH, this is so lovely. I loved seeing the relationship through Jinto's eyes. Someone who doesn't know them well at all, but sees things they wouldn't show anybody else.

This line was my favourite:

He watches Sheppard disappear into himself, weighed down by the duties that Teyla carries with greater grace, and he learns for the first time how guilt looks in a man's frown.

Just for what you said about Sheppard during Season 1 the other day ;D
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User: sheafrotherdon
Date: 2007-12-23 17:14 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
I got the idea for this story after watching The Rising - so yes, Sheppard disappearing was totally on my mind! Well spotted :D

Thank you, sweets!
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Gaffsie
User: gaffsie
Date: 2007-12-20 22:54 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Aww, Jinto-fic. I've loved that little guy ever since his, "I am Jinto!," in Rising. :D

He sees that McKay refuses to leave Sheppard in isolation, and he loves him a little for that. He's not the only one. That is just lovely.
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User: sheafrotherdon
Date: 2007-12-23 17:14 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
I love "I am Jinto!" too! And It was re-watching Rising the other day that gave me the idea for this.

Thank you, sweets!
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Kass: John/Rodney chess
User: kassrachel
Date: 2007-12-20 22:55 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Keyword:John/Rodney chess
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

I love the idea of Jinto studying manhood by watching the men around him, the lessons he learns from John and from Rodney and from Carson and even from Kavanagh.

And out beyond the warm circle of the village fire's welcome, McKay takes Sheppard's hand, spied on by a boy-becoming-man who had never considered that this might be a man's choice too.

::flailing::

Beautiful.

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User: sheafrotherdon
Date: 2007-12-23 17:15 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Thank you so much, lovie!
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wordwitch: WeirYum
User: wordwitch
Date: 2007-12-20 22:59 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Keyword:WeirYum
Me, I like this internal summary: He studies compassion by watching Dr. Beckett's hands, learns everything he knows he wishes not to become by spending half a day with Kavanagh, grows curious along with Parrish as the botanist harvests seeds and saplings, handling each specimen with such care. It's a heady education, to sort and discard each quality before him as desirable or not, to see conflicts resolved with sharp words and silences, punches to the mouth.

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User: sheafrotherdon
Date: 2007-12-23 17:15 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
I was thinking of the men in season one and what you'd take from each of them - what a heady mix for wee Jinto to see, in addition to all his Athosian role models!

Thank you, sweets!
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The post-apocalypse Karl Lagerfeld: across the universe
User: lazlet
Date: 2007-12-20 23:00 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Keyword:across the universe
I love the outsider perspective on established characters and here it is really well done. You always manage to fill even your shortest pieces with so much to take in, so much clear observation and perceptiveness.

Like this: He watches Sheppard disappear into himself, weighed down by the duties that Teyla carries with greater grace, and he learns for the first time how guilt looks in a man's frown.

Sharp and concise and saying more about both Sheppard and Teyla in one sentence than many other writers manage in entire stories.

Lovely.
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User: sheafrotherdon
Date: 2007-12-23 17:15 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Oh, thank you, sweets! So much!
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lamardeuse: Teyla by sdraevn
User: lamardeuse
Date: 2007-12-20 23:01 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Keyword:Teyla by sdraevn
Wow. Wow. Wow.
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User: sheafrotherdon
Date: 2007-12-23 17:16 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
*squishes you*
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liamar13: J&R bodies
User: liamar13
Date: 2007-12-20 23:04 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Keyword:J&R bodies
oh

that was perfect. its so beautifully expressed, every detail. i love the way he sees each man, such a unique description of the people we know. i love this: He watches Sheppard disappear into himself, weighed down by the duties that Teyla carries with greater grace, and he learns for the first time how guilt looks in a man's frown.so perceptive. and the events at the harvest just killed me. so so sweet and wonderful. thank you for this.
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User: sheafrotherdon
Date: 2007-12-23 17:16 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
thank you so much, sweets!
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hooker 13: forget the sun in his jealous sky
User: amberlynne
Date: 2007-12-20 23:07 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Keyword:forget the sun in his jealous sky
Oooh. I adore Jinto's hero-worship of John from the beginning and this is a lovely extension of that. Seeing John and Rodney through very innocent eyes, it would be even clearer how amazing they are and you really capture that. Aw, boys. All three of them! *sniffles* Beautiful.
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User: sheafrotherdon
Date: 2007-12-23 17:16 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
I love Jinto hero-worshipping John too! I wish Jinto could come back :D

Thank you, love!
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Loriel Eris: john/rodney just a kiss adrift // sga
User: loriel_eris
Date: 2007-12-20 23:08 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Keyword:john/rodney just a kiss adrift // sga
Love seeing the boys from an outside POV! *g* And seeing Jinto evaluate the members of the expedition and be able to judge what to keep and discard was pretty damn cool. (And I love that he was so very competent and able about it.)
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User: sheafrotherdon
Date: 2007-12-23 17:17 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Thank you, sweets!!
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User: sheafrotherdon
Date: 2007-12-23 17:18 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Trying to imagine Rodney as viewed from a Pegasus perspective was pretty amusing :D Thank you, sweets!
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twicet
User: twicet
Date: 2007-12-20 23:25 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Lovely. Thank you.
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User: sheafrotherdon
Date: 2007-12-25 23:26 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Thank you! :D
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User: winkingstar
Date: 2007-12-20 23:27 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Keyword:[SGA] Shep wrist
Oh this is so lovely. I ♥ Jinto lots, and his perspective of a boy-becoming-man is wonderful. I love all his insights into the different qualities of the Lanteans, and especially his confusion about the conflicting personality of Rodney. And the way his world grows "half a possibility more". Such a beautiful story!
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User: sheafrotherdon
Date: 2007-12-25 23:26 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Thank you so much, sweets!
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Citizen Kafka
User: ladyoflisquill
Date: 2007-12-20 23:51 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
I love how you describe Jinto watching, and how he sees the different men. Beckett's cameo gave me a little heart ache (I miss him so much) but Jinto's reaction to seeing Rodney & John together being a simple process of understanding, an evaluation and an acceptance took my breath away... and maybe made me a little sad that there is not more of this in our world.
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User: sheafrotherdon
Date: 2007-12-25 23:29 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
It's nice to imagine a place where there could be acceptance that's so easy! And thank you, sweets.
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Sasha_feather
User: sasha_feather
Date: 2007-12-20 23:51 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Thank you for the refreshing season 1 fic! It makes me kind of miss the Athosians and their perspective. My favorite bit is "Fay-riss Whee-s". Ha!

Lovely story.
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User: sheafrotherdon
Date: 2007-12-25 23:29 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Hee - poor Jinto, trying to take these strange, foreign words make sense :D Thank you!
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jaekayelle: j&r behind you by velocitygrass
User: jaekayelle
Date: 2007-12-20 23:52 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Keyword:j&r behind you by velocitygrass
*insert incoherent joyful noises*

Seeing the boys through someone else's eyes is one of my favourite things. Jinto is young and accepting and non-judgemental and he learns through watching the Lanteans, and especially by watching John and Rodney, together and apart.

*sighs wistfully*
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User: sheafrotherdon
Date: 2007-12-25 23:29 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Thank you so much, sweets!
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kis: just a moment
User: kisiti
Date: 2007-12-21 00:05 (UTC)
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Keyword:just a moment
I adore how quietly observant this is. It's perfect. Thank you.
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User: sheafrotherdon
Date: 2007-12-25 23:29 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
thank you, sweets!
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AwHumanityNo: McShep Bert'n'Ernie
User: miasnape
Date: 2007-12-21 00:12 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Keyword:McShep Bert'n'Ernie
Hi, I'm Mia and I'm a 3rd Person POV-aholic. It's been 30 seconds since I last squeed myself into a state of ecstasy over it.
*glee*
Oh, I loved everything about this, but especially how it made me think about the other kinds of hope the boys et al. are bringing to the Pegasus galaxy beyond the ATA gene and a whole buttload of weapons, "half a possibility" at a time.
Just. \o/ Yays all around.
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User: sheafrotherdon
Date: 2007-12-25 23:30 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Awww, thank you so much, sweets! ♥
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shara50: dream Rodney
User: shara50
Date: 2007-12-21 00:30 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Keyword:dream Rodney
Lovely and very neat perspective on John and Rodney!!
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User: sheafrotherdon
Date: 2007-12-25 23:30 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Thank you, sweets!
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insufferable know-it-all
User: bironic
Date: 2007-12-21 00:31 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Even though the narrative felt at times as though it belonged to someone older and more mature than Jinto, I still love the voice of this, and the sort-of-outsider's perspective of John and Rodney and the rest of the crew of Atlantis. Other people have already brought up some of my favorite lines, but something I also loved was the observation towards the end that homosexual relationships are a natural part of Athosian society (and all Pegasus societies where not forbidden, I would think) but that Jinto doesn't necessarily know what goes on inside those homes, and that this is something the Lanteans bring to Pegasus, this possibility, this hope and revelation, where so many other fics focus instead on the difficulties John has in admitting or displaying homosexual leanings.
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User: sheafrotherdon
Date: 2007-12-25 23:35 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
I totally take your point about the narrative voice - I'm not sure I meant it to be Jinto's voice per se so much as an Athosian voice in general? But still, yes, the maturity thing was hard to negotiate even as I wrote and edited, so I can see that for sure.

I'm glad you liked the story regardless - it was fun to imagine what the Lanteans must've looked like to an outsider, especially one who's just figuring out what he wants from his world. Thank you, sweets!
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dajaje: joe
User: dajaje
Date: 2007-12-21 01:00 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Keyword:joe
OMG, I love Jinto! And I love Jinto wanting to grow up to be John because hero-worship is all kinds of awesome!! But I especially love how you've made Jinto into such a good observer and that he realizes no single person has the answers, but that there is something to learn from everyone. *hugs Jinto and gives him milk and warm cookies*

You are so full of wonderfulness!
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User: sheafrotherdon
Date: 2007-12-25 23:35 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Awww, thank you, sweets!
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d_odyssey
User: d_odyssey
Date: 2007-12-21 01:07 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
What a stroke of genius to see the early days through Jinto's eyes. Interesting perception of the expedition members, especially his confusion as to how to take Rodney. Enjoy how he chooses the traits he wishes to emulate, also that as a child he doesn't have the prejudices so that he can see everything with an open mind. Enjoyed seeing the events from a different POV. Good job, thanks for sharing.
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User: sheafrotherdon
Date: 2007-12-25 23:36 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Thank you, sweets!
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anyway above all #teampoe
User: dogeared
Date: 2007-12-21 01:20 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
I think you're SO clever to let us see John and Rodney through Jinto's eyes, and you do it so well! And the end, oh, the end, a tangled holding on and Jinto's opened eyes, oh oh oh lovely. ♥
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User: sheafrotherdon
Date: 2007-12-25 23:36 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Boyyyyyys!! *smishes best Jenns*
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melagan
User: melagan
Date: 2007-12-21 01:29 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
I have a weakness for outsider pov. And that it was Jinto watching, and learning made my little heart squeee
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User: sheafrotherdon
Date: 2007-12-25 23:36 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
awww, thank you, sweets!
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jujuberry136
User: jujuberry136
Date: 2007-12-21 01:38 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
I loved this. Such an awesome look at Sheppard/McKay, and props for using Jinto. I miss him in canon.

Thanks for sharing.
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User: sheafrotherdon
Date: 2007-12-25 23:36 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
I miss Jinto too! :D Thank you, sweets!
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even if the sky is falling down
User: misskatieleigh
Date: 2007-12-21 02:07 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
*happy place*
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Cate
User: sheafrotherdon
Date: 2007-12-25 23:37 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
♥ ♥ ♥
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